For the ones who are awakening and remembering

Pain comes from people not recognizing our own wakeful potential

We think the only kind of pain that’s to be treated is the kind that commands all of our attention. Like when we have a gaping wound or a broken heart. But in truth, a sense of helplessness, emptiness and despair is a version of pain not many of us have a solution for.

You cannot simply walk into a medical store or a hospital, point to an injury and without even words, begin to seek treatment.

The kind of innate pain one feels when we’re detached from our soul purpose is not so easy to fix because the solution requires a brave decision to question. Question what? To question where and when we have given away our power, our source of curiosity, our sense of wonder. Why is that important?

Without curiosity or the permission to follow a strand of it, we are not able to figure out a path that belongs solely to us.

When instead of following a curiosity, a mild obsession, or even a hobby we keep when we’re bored, we turn to what’s logical or “good” to do, we start to ignore our soul’s path and start to treat ourselves as carbon copies – capitalistic slaves of “the matrix”.

But friends, the matrix is as real as harry potter is – it is real because we give it a name. It is real because we uphold it. It stays real because we participate in it.

What is a soul’s path? This question accompanied me as I started Year 3 of being a digital nomad.

It was mid 2022 I believe, and I had an online job that allowed me to work from anywhere.

I found myself in Pai, north of Thailand, upon recommendation because I’d once asked a fellow traveller where his 2 favourite locations in the world were. “Albania & Pai,” he’d said.

I’d gone to Albania earlier in 2020 and loved it, and so now I came to Pai, fell in love with it after 2 weeks and decided to stay.

The jitters and grief from my divorce was dying down and so my heart started to make space for joy, peace and love.

Being in Pai was tremendously healing for my soul. I was being slowly initiated onto a spiritual awakening path though I wasn’t consciously aware of it.

In the days I would ride my scooter to the “office” (which was usually a chosen cafe where we could stay for 6 hours straight) and work there till I was done. Once 5pm came around, we packed up, left our laptops at home and began our “night” routine.

It usually began by chilling in our little hut, watching the clouds roll by as the sun set, then taking a scooter into town and walking along the night market street. There’s only 1 walking street in Pai and everyone is there at night. We would buy our food and eat it while walking (we loved the tofu sticks and mochi, as well as this amazing falafel wrap that always had a long queue) and venture into one of the boutique stores to check out the knicks and knacks. I loved stopping by this place with handmade jewellery to speak to the artist, who eventually became a friend. Sometimes, we would tuck away into the tea shop and make a new friend in there while sipping on hot tea.

Pai was healing a part of my soul I didn’t even knew I needed healing.

And so once the healing began, it started getting more and more impossible to avoid this knowledge – that I wasn’t connected to what my soul came here to experience.

I had a great online job yes, working in digital marketing agency, and I knew I wasn’t there to build a career in the industry, just learn marketing skills so I could one day use them.

But the question still bothered me – what am I gonna do with myself one day???

I’d been waiting I think by then…about a whole year. My body KNEW something was coming. It let me know that at the very least. But WHAT? and WHEN?

I wasn’t made privvy to those vital information I so wanted to have.

So one day, I took myself out to lunch and instead of going to my usual cafe, I checked out this other cafe I always ride past but never enter.

I order myself a bowl of green goodness and as I sit down to eat, my energy is turned towards this lady, sitting at the table beside me alone and reading a book.

Without even thinking (good on me), I started chatting with her and before we knew it, we were having a good conversation about everything and anything – including my recent questions of “what is my purpose”

She then whispered the words to me “human design” and told me to check it out.

I didn’t know being in that cafe on that fateful day would lead me to one day starting a Human Design academy in Singapore. But God never tells you “boo!” if not there’s no chance or surprising you.

Since then, I’ve done 1-1 consultations, held workshops, ran retreats, organized a mini festival and have started a certification program to teach others in Singapore how to read HD charts.

And although it’s much harder to run a business than to work for someone else, my heart loves the hard work because it’s my heart’s work.

I also have detached from the idea that there is only 1 soul purpose in this life time. I’ve come to realize, there is a general direction my soul wants to go towards, a general purpose my soul signed up for and that is – to uphold humanity. To support the evolution of our collective, moving into one that believes in the good of mankind.

It might sound easy to do, but that in itself is like climbing Mt everest with no jacket, no shoes, no guides, no sight and no clue – only an inner fire that’s determined to reach its destination, or die trying.